I am a 24 year old Filipino female. I am married to a Chinese man and we have two kids for 3 years. At first he was a good man, a gentleman and took care of me. He always treated me to BBQ. But then I found out that he was taking drugs and he hurt me. He always beat me. It is hard for me to sleep at night. I want to sleep but my whole body and brain don't want to sleep because I always remember the slaps he gave me on my face and head. It is horrible. I haven't slept well for months, my hair has fallen out a lot and my head always hurts. I have been through a lot of trauma. I never thought that he would always beat me. He always said that he loved me and that he could sacrifice his life because he loved me so much. But why did he always slap and beat me? I always forgave him. I want to break up with him. I want to go to a far place so that I can never see him again. But I feel sad for the kids. What should I do? Please help me. Now I do want to leave him so that I can have peace of mind.